Grace: At first I couldn"t understand what the pillows where doing in my hands and why you didn"t move, but then I knew, it had happened, I killed my children. I got the rifle, I put it to my forehead and I pulled the trigger, nothing, and I heard your laughter in the bedroom, you were playing with the pillows as if nothing had happened, and I thought the Lord and his great mercy was giving me another chance, tell them, don"t give up, be strong, be a good mother but now, but now what does this all mean? Where are we?